This pain mine forever

I love fiercely, trustingly.
There is no hidden agenda.
My heart bleeds when hurt.
I will forgive, yet cannot forget.

A hypocrite am I?
I forgive, yet cannot forget.
A trust that cannot be mended.
Anger takes a space in my heart.

That moment etched forever.
In my mind, in my heart.
My heart bled and cried.
I forgave, yet I cannot forget.

Not understanding why.
Even when you explained.
To be pushed out in the cold.
To cease being friends.

My young heart battered then.
The first slash of rejection felt.
Never did it mend completely.
This pain mine forever.

By C.E. Pereira