One of those up and down days

autumn

I pleaded for the rain to fall.
To cast its gloomy shadow down.
I pleaded for the rain to pour.
And drench me in tears, my tears.

The rain did not fall today.
I felt the sun’s rays beating down.
The day bright and sunny, glorious.
Mocking the pain within my soul.

I sat in silence, my sadness locked in.
As the sun rose higher I pouted.
I wanted to be wrapped in gloom.
But the weather refused to be gloomy.

There I sat looking out the window.
It was a lovely day to be outdoors.
But I kept punishing myself.
I wanted to wallow in self-pity.

How did sadness turn into self-pity?
I needed to talk to someone, anyone.
I came up empty, while drowning in sadness.
And evolved into anger, tears hot.

It took a while but I came to my senses.
Sometimes I just have to let my emotions run riot.
From sadness to pouting; then self-pity to anger.
I am back to being sad but no more mad at the world.

By C.E. Pereira
(23-11-2016)

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Author: cepcarol

I'm a Eurasian of Portuguese, English, Scottish and Malay heritage. And my extended family are of Chinese and Indian heritage. My world is made up of different colours like the rainbow. And like the rainbow I am unique. Reading is my form of relaxation, to escape from the drudgery of daily life and enter into a world of the imagination. It is the love of reading that has led me to try my hand in writing short stories and poems. I hope that in some way my stories and poems will take you for a little while away from the drudgery of the present into the pages of imagination. To new friends found, I bid you, Welcome. Sincerely, C.E. Pereira

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