The sun has come out…

autumn

Here are two poem that I am re-posting. The first one captures childhood memories of siblings while the second poem shows how my life goes on after death takes away a loved one.

For those who have lost someone, lean on God’s strength and love for comfort and healing. He will take away the sadness, bleakness and anguish for He is our Abba.

Today, 4th October 2015 is the anniversary of my brother’s death. It is 10 years since that bleak and sad day. Each year my heart has stopped hurting a little and at this moment in time I can say that I remember him without sadness or anguish but with love cherished.

I will always miss my brother but today I remember his smile, his impatience, his laughter, his joy when his two babies were born, his frustration, even his anger, his humour and jokes, his gentleness and most of all his love for us.

Poem 1: Childhood remembered

I remembered when,
a little sister and her two big brothers,
laughed and giggled together,
argued and fought over anything,
forgot and became friends again!

I remembered when,
I was that little sister,
who tagged along with her big brothers,
was told to keep up,
if I wanted to be part of the gang!

I remembered when,
my big brothers teased me,
just because they could,
told me not to whine or cry,
when I stumbled and fell!

I remembered when,
we played cowboys and Red Indians,
or police and thieves,
catching or hide and seek,
the scent of childhood!

I remembered when,
we sneaked out to play,
got caught and punished,
in the corner we knelt,
to atone our crime!

I remembered when,
homework and lessons were tedious,
to both of you,
without Mum and Dad knowing,
I sometimes did your homework!

I remembered when,
we built a go-kart,
I was voted to test drive,
down a rocky dirt lane,
such speed and no brakes,
a heap I ended up at the bottom!

I remembered when,
we broke into the neighbours garden,
climbed the fruit trees,
and got away with mangoes and guavas,
like gleeful little monkeys!

I remembered when,
there was a season for everything,
marbles and top-spinning,
kite-flying and rounders,
if only I could turn back time!

I remembered when,
Dad made us a union jack kite,
with glass string to do battle,
taught us the art of kite fighting,
not forgetting the lesson on kite flying!

I remembered when,
one hot afternoon we waded in the river,
little fishes we caught a plenty,
Mum found the bowl of fishes,
a scolding we got for keeping tadpoles!

I remembered when,
my toys were taken apart,
curious to know how it worked,
furious I was,
as the toys was kaput!

I remembered when,
we sat in the storeroom,
eagerly waiting for bananas thrown and caught,
as the boy next-door shared with us,
while our Mums had their afternoon nap!

I remembered when,
the ice-cream man came,
with not enough money between us,
turning the wheel of fortune,
we walked away with our hands full!

I remembered when,
a weekend at Nanny’s,
all of us cousins sitting around her,
the smell of stew,
of Nanny feeding us!

I remembered when,
we went for afternoon matinees
Tarzan was the main attraction,
And western followed next,
But James Bond was not on the list!

I remembered when,
on rainy days,
making paper boats and sampans,
and watching them sail away,
made the day much brighter!

I remembered when,
another weekend at Nanny’s
of Roy and Evelyn being chased,
by Nanny with a broom,
both cheeky imps laughing and running!

I remembered when,
of collecting ang-pows and firecrackers,
of tasty dodols and muruku,
of mooncakes and lanterns,
and waking up to open gifts on Christmas morning!

Memories so precious,
of childhood remembered,
of the three, one has gone home,
with love,
bade farewell!

(In loving memory of Roy, my brother and friend.
4th October 2005)

By C. E. Pereira
(20-1-2006)

Poem 2: Still miss you

How long has it been?
Life has gone on without you.
New memories made,
You are not in them.

Has it been two years?
You were called home.
But it’s as clear as yesterday,
Time has no meaning.

Is there still pain?
Not much, for time heals.
But missing you each day,
Makes it still hurt.

New photographs taken,
Smiling faces, laughing ones,
Searching for you,
Knowing you’ll not be there.

Christmas has come,
The year has ended,
A new year begins,
Birthdays celebrated, all without you.

Learning new things,
Going to new places,
Wanting to share with you,
Reaching out, you’re gone.

Pages of life cannot be turned back
Neither can it be altered.
Your journery has ended,
All that remains are memories

Remembering your laugh, your smile
Brings comfort, eases the pain
Memories that once hurt,
Now fills me with your love.

By C. E. Pereira
(23-2-2008)

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