Trust places a person in a vulnerable position. When trust is broken it takes a long time to mend it. But the trust we place in God never gets broken. The first step in letting go is a struggle as we want to be in control but God doesn’t give up on us. He is always with us.
I stumble and fall
I reach out to you and you pick me up
You call out to me
Asking me to put my trust in you.
Gently asking me to come to you
But I want to hold on to me alone
I don’t want to depend on you
It is hard to let go.
So many times I’ve been let down
For trusting in others
Now, I find it hard to change
Or put my trust in you.
Hard to let go of being independent
Of answering to anyone but myself
How am I to let go of everything?
I’m afraid you’ll leave me too.
I don’t want to be dependent on you.
Deep inside I know you’ll never desert me
Never abandon me or stop loving me
So why do I struggle within?
Why so many battles, so much pain?
All I have to do is trust in you
Your hand is on this door of my heart
Your love is unconditional.
Let go; softly whispered.
I don’t want to.
Open your heart; I heard a whisper.
I let go; reached out into the unknown.
By C.E. Pereira
(18-5-1991 – Rewritten 27-9-2015)